| Lighthouse - take 2 |
| Written by Sandra Baraci |
| Sunday, 05 October 2008 05:54 |
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There is almost infinite amount of ways one can approach the same subject, that matters so much to them. I watched this lighthouse since I was a baby, and had tried to capture it many times through paintings and photography, trying to capture its spirit. It has had been a guiding light in my life. I wanted to play with the textures, and single tone, to capture the things within me when I think about it, the sharp rocks forming abstracts shapes, scarce plants around it, and dynamic sky. I wanted it multilayered just the same way life is, I dried brushed prussian blue and white over and over again to achieve the dynamic in it. I am starting to enjoy this style. I am starting to do much better recently, well in some ways thanks to antidepressants that just make me numb to things around me and within me and sometimes make me space out. At least I am not crying anymore and am able to put on a brave mask. Thing with pills they make me very sleepy, and if it was up to me I would spend whole day in bed without even wanting to get up and smell the roses. Thursday and Friday I worked stuffing the envelopes with invoices. I left my lil one with my mother in law. Half way throughout the day I got panic phonecall to come pick my lil one and take her to doctor. I dropped it all even if it could mean that they might not call me back to work since I work as casual, and rushed to pick my lil one. My mother in law told me she had been vomiting and turned all blue in face. I took her to first available GP since one we like to go to was not available and he sent us home saying not to worry that lil one is vomiting and that she turned blue. While I was driving I noticed lil one stopped responding and when I looked at her her eyes were rolled back and she was unconscious on back seat. I pulled over shaking her for about 2 minutes to wake up she was not responding. EVentually she did I drove her home talked to my mum who is doctor and packed her to ER, where they have not done anything except holding us there for 7h and doing blood tests. Luckily she is doing a bit better last 2 days I would not want to repeat this again.This was scary as.
I took 3 paintings for show today. The show opening is next weekend at The Hut gallery in Fern Tree Gully. I am looking towards this one because I am under no pressure, have no expectations, I even told my hubby that he does not have to come to opening if he would not want to because I know these things bore me. I volunteered to help next saturday with hanging of the works,. We also went to walk to Dandenongs today. It was beautiful day for it and I thought a lil bit of sun and fresh air might do a bit of good for all of us.
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"Lighthouse", acrylic on paper, about A4 size
