I have been painting a lot recently, lets say it has been hard, because all the emotions rush out, because I let my subconscieous speak and then I cannot stop myself. It reflects itself of me physically, because I cannot help holding myself back, and that affects people around me because They do not like seeing things within me surfacing.

New meds I have been put on are pretty much making me a zombie on two feet, because I cannot help myself but be on couch allday without ability or will to move from the couch.  Lil one is sick so that all is hard, and I am very unhappy with everything. Anyhow I have been asked if I was willing todonate one of my paintings for the 1st Croatian Film Festival to be auctioned as part of the pre-festival activities in September. I have decided to paint a piece of home, one of my favourite spots on Sveti Petar, Makarska, Croatia.  That place always puts me at peace, because only by getting lost back home one can find themselves. I hope I manage to find myself one day.

Everything is driving me bananas recently.  Even smallest things annoy me and I burst in the instant.  I miss my family dearly, my home and all my friends.  Those things, places and people cannot ever be replaced or substituted with the something else.