I wish things were simpler, non void, non empty.  I wish I would not feel like essence of me has been ripped out and left away behind me but it is... I sometimes wish I didnt make choices I have long time ago but I did and now my hands are tied and I surrender. Not like I can fix the past or move towards the future.  I just sit there facing the walls, trying to avoid things so I would not get even more upset, not trying to move on because there is nothing to move on to.  I just feel so empty.