I feel broken and blind.  I cant see reality in positive way, there is only darkness engulfing, there is anger, sadness, wish to cease. There are no desires for tomorrow, there is nothing, every day is same, routine, pushing forward while not seeing.  Its all empty, and scary thing is that emptiness is seducing me, taunting me, blinding me more and more.  I just want it all to end.  My thoughts are tangled mess.