I created these series at my lowest period in life. I used the paintings as introspection so I can make decisions of what to do and where to go, which eventuated with the marriage breakdown. I went through deep depression, painting and crying day in and day out. This cumulated with the art show "Despair" which was well received. I used a number of mediums for creating these works, oil on canvas, acrylics even my own blood and tears. This period changed me significantly and had profound impact on my artwork. In a way I believe this has set me on the path I am on today.